surgery garb were scrambling and joking around me.
We joked, laughed and talked about medical marijuana.
I was in for my third, and in my mind last, cornea transplant.
One minute we were all laughing the next thing I was waking up in recovery. A patch over my left eye and a little bit groggy. Feeling like I’d been run over. Oh and I’ve been run over so I know what that feels like. That’s a story for another day.
It’s been seven years. Two spent coming to grips with the fact I may actually become blind, three going through different surgeries and healing.
You see it takes a full year to get all the stitches out after the transplant.
I’ve learned more about patience. About being extremely grateful for the ability to see. As a former professional photographer being able to see the world around me is important still.
Fact is I’ve gotten a lot out of this whole experience. The increased “spidey-sense” on my left side. It saves me from walking into walls, most of the time anyways. But the ability to work more with energy and work with what I have. To be able to bounce back from some imagined dilemma. One that I allowed to cripple me for a time.
Until I changed the way I was looking at the situation. I saw it as an ending when it was in actual fact a blessing. I moved on to a new career. The next step so to speak in this journey.
All in all, it’s been a great learning experience. It’s amazing to find out how much strength we have in these situations. The body being able to bounce back, the mind being able to reroute and change direction.
Like the saying goes, the mind is a terrible thing to waste, so by putting it to work so many thoughts actually do become things. I imagined myself in poverty and downtrodden and that’s exactly what happened. Tossed like a leaf in the wind.
When I changed my thoughts to ones of strength and vitality then that is what began to appear in my life. Don’t get me wrong here now cause I’m not thinking all day about love light happiness and all things new age. What I am doing is being aware of where my mind goes if I let it run wild.
I make a conscious effort in seeing what happens with a thought thread. Where is this going and stop it before it goes in a direction that is leading me in a downward spiral. Do you know the one I mean? So before that happens, I adjust and refocus on what I actually want to see in my life.
I laugh more at silly little things to lighten up and enjoy life. I look at a piece of pottery in my room and remember a wonderful vacation. I actually know and believe and see in my mind the way my life is changing. And every day something else happens to make it a reality. A phone call, a message, an invitation to share what I have learned along the way to help somebody else.
The phrase “It’s all good” has new meaning now. It’s all the way you choose to see it.